mom's having me go through some old stuff so she can use my old room for something else. it's been funny to find some of my clothes, notes, etc. i found a couple old journals. i used to write a lot more. Just because i don't say it/ doesn't mean it isn't there. just because i don't touch you/doesn't mean i don't care. even though i can't see you/doesn't mean i don't remember. and just because i didn't say yes/doesn't mean i won't later. Just because he says it/doesn't mean that it's true. just because you made love/doesn't mean he loves you. even though you think of him/doesn't mean that he cares. and just beacuse you said yes/ doesn't make his heart yours. (04) Lover to Me (me to myself) as you are coming near i want to draw you on my soul (please sketch me out in pencil so i'll be easy to let go) i see your innocent lips- i envision mine next to yours (i can spill with sensuality but no emotion can i pour) reaching out i touch your hand-molding yours into my own (I'd let you take a part of me but the pieces are already gone) if you let me hold you now-will you let me hold you forever? (if i let you hold me now it'll be hard for me to say never) (05) i am SO tired. my body is goo and i still can't sleep :( even better is coming home to this: jason: hey nell. me: hey. jason: so are you up for getting some food, or coffee, or What the CRAP happened to your face?! isn't he awesome? hahaha. i laughed, coughed a lot, then laughed some more. |